Hope??? Or Not!

      It's been a while since I last put some thoughts down. I do know one thing and that's that I have not lost any hope. I read of cases that others have gotten their hearing back. In some cases it took months before they were able to hear; but in time did get their hearing back.
      The hardest thing has been adjusting to everyday life. I don't pretend to hear everything because I don't. Simple noises are hard to identify. A quiet conversation is difficult. The ringing in my head is overwhelming at times and lossing my balance is just part of my everyday life now. What a normal life.
      I find myself at times lost in the noise in my head. I think of how many years I have left with this and hope that I can learn to push forward day by day. I don't know how to explain the difficulty of  closing your mind to constant noise.